Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in Arctic Tundra's LiveJournal:

Thursday, December 15th, 2005
11:16 am	Almost there Good morning! Well as much as I have wanted to, I am almost done smoking. Yesterday I was reduced to smoking only 5 cigarettes. This morning I was thinking about it, and have staved off the craving by having a cup of Mate' instead. I am planning to not smoke today at all. I was given a fresh pack, and I have not opened that pack yet. I think I will just keep those with me just in case I feel that I might need one. I am hoping to not open them at all. I have stocked up on my favorite types of sugar-free gum, and since this is usually a treat for myself, I am hoping to substitute that for other vices. I used to be a champion bubble blower in my youth, so maybe I will take up this cud chewing once again. I have only bitten off 4 of my nails in this process to not smoke, but will be cutting the others to match and try to stop doing that anymore as well. I did not even smoke in my van yesterday, as I had the piggy out for her vet visit. The vet visit went pretty well. Jazzy is 11 years old now, and pretty healthy. She had 2 teeth extracted, which I heard from the vet is not unusual for a pet of her age. He said that sometimes they get tooth decay and most of the time they just loose them on their own anyway. No impacted teeth, and no abscess's, so the extraction went well. I got in trouble with Max yesterday due to this taking so long and my getting kitten to work almost 12 minutes late. (Boy did that conversation make me want a cigarette!) Well I had a very productive day at home and then I went over and helped Daddy have a nice bath and shave. This helped me feel better too, as I borrowed his tub and had a nice shave myself:) The weird thing was, after that we watched some episodes of Family Man, and I felt like I was waiting for something, as I did not want to smoke at that point. I was extra careful driving home as the temperature was about 25 in Seattle where I was, and only 22 here at home. The roads were shiny and sparkly, and I was very paranoid about traction, so I kept both hands in a death grip on the wheel. I didn't even have a cigarette when I got home. Good-ie for me. I think I am almost there. Current Mood: determined (28 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 12th, 2005
11:46 am	Feeling better... OK, so last nights post was a depressed rant. Please forgive me. I think a full nights sleep really helped me. I will be so overbooked in the coming weeks, but I think I am catching the anniversary bug, and a bit of the Christmas cheer. That is better on the mind than things that I need to get done. I guess to add to the holiday overload, my little Guido is about to set out on cookie sales for her Brownies troop. Sheese! Oh well I will find out more at the meeting tonight. I will be assisting Daddy on getting some fresh air this evening, so that will be positive as well. At least I can help out where I am needed and appreciated:D Home life is busy with getting the floor back and trying to tackle the mountain of laundry:P Kisses to all those that replied with good wishes and happy thoughts, AT Current Mood: energetic (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 11th, 2005
11:00 pm	How do things get like this? Hiya again one and all. I have been trying to keep awake, cheerful and productive. On Friday Snakeman went into surgery to have all the hardware put into his fore-arm and wrist. I should have slept while he was in surgery, but I couldn't. I have watched him give up smoking cold turkey, with only lozenges to suppress the cravings. He has been a real inspiration in this regard. As for the surgery, it all went very well, and Snakeman is doing great. I think he is staying out of sight for a while till he feels better. I know that I have been asked to give up smoking by Max for years now, and that it bothers him no end that I smoke. I should give up the nic-stix to make him happy and be supportive of my Daddy as well (even though Snakeman is not bothered by my smoking, and says his goal is to not become a self righteous ex-smoker type). I am very pissed off about the 25' rule, and feel that each time I light up that someone out there is just waiting to beat me up, or arrest me for breaking the law and being an "asshole that still smokes". I have been advised that I should quit for myself (by Snakeman). I am depressed about quitting, as I feel that it is the only vice I have ever allowed myself. Maybe I should take up hard drugs, or drinking instead! Perhaps I should find a head-shrink that will prescribe me some sort of great drugs that will allow me to have 5 minutes to myself, to stop being so depressed about things. I know this is all a bunch of crap, but I am not ready, and yet I must do this to make others happy. I also found out that the smoking deck at the WS is no more, and that if we want to obey the law, "smokers" must do so outside next to the dumpster! That is where I belong I guess, in the dumpster crowd. So much for enjoying a break in the nude. Speaking of in the nude...I have not been feeling very sexy as of late either. Time to hit the second thing that I am getting pressured about, my fat body. I have to get back on the health kick and get my lazy self to the gym. I think I will be doing this for myself. I have spent a full year without much in the way of exercise, and I feel guilty as ever about this. I should be thin and loving it. Well enough ranting about guilt and such, I am hoping that all my friends are happy and well for their holidays. I just got through having a friend help me put away the piggy crate and the Christmas decorations that have been cluttering up my garage. Oh well! I have to get the crate down by Wednesday to take the piggy in for her yearly visit to the vet, and I guess I have to decorate the house too. I wonder why I bother making things tidy some days. I have the gifts for Max already, and I have no idea what to get anyone else, but I guess I better start thinking of something for all of them. Christmas used to be a fun and exciting thing, now it seems like a great amount of work. Maybe I am finally getting old. Can't fix that part of me I guess. Well now that I am home again, I better get to the laundry and such. I guess I will be happier tomorrow, although I was gifted a wonderful cake for Max and I,(an early anniversary gift)that has the two of us on it by way of a photo that Snakeman took of us at SEAF last year. Cool, We can eat the picture of us too. After we eat the cake, I think I will start my diet and exercise program, and maybe go bite off all my nails instead of smoke. Current Mood: stressed (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
11:04 am	Here I am again!!! Surprise!!! Well hello one and all:) I have not written to any of you in quite a while, and since others have been asking me what I have been up to, here goes:) I am still happily married to miraclemax, (almost to the 21 year mark) still investing loads of time with Daddy Snakeman, finding plenty of great ladies to torment and pleasure, Still overbooked and under paid:) My life has been non stop, as usual. My girl is the best thing at keeping me going everyday. The homeschooling, gymnastics, drama, Brownies and counseling are going well for her. I am learning about her through watching her interact with other kids and adults and her new counselor. We are working out the "can do" attitudes with her in many areas of her life, but with some normal resistances of course. When she is amazing and smart and well behaved, she is my kid, and when she acts up, she is Max's girl!! LOL The counselor is convinced that she is ADHD, but I am still studying up on that. I think after we have her tested for high IQ, things will not look so bleak. I did not realize that I would be so heavily scrutinized myself by her counselor, and that brought up things that I thought I was past dealing with. She has her father and mother's propensity for hyper activity, but I do not believe in categorizing her into some acronym. I am so very blessed to not have a complacent child that is a complete conformist! There is not a day goes by that she doesn't challenge my mental and physical self. The counselor wants me to watch out that I don't hit burn-out too soon...What ever that means! I have been able to continue going to all my favorite events, and being involved in so much of the world. I feel like I live a full and somewhat Golden life. With Max giving me the green light to help my friends and community so much I owe the man my greatest love and admiration. I am truly blessed! I have had the whirlwind year so far, and I don't see it slowing down anytime soon. I was voted in as the Vice President for SWL, have gotten the PPV's (see below) into a marketable stage and into mass production, educated so many new faces as a teacher for the SPCC and through my friends class for Clitoral Revelations, helped out with fund raisers and events for the SML and Verbena as well. I have worked events such as the SEAF, SWL fundraisers (including a stripper dance that I had 20 minutes to prepare for)and play parties. I have been to so many events in the last year that I have been truly spoiled in that regard as well. Daddy and I took a friend with us to Kink Fest in Oregon, I attended Wicked Women(spelled wrong..Sorry), WSIP, weddings, drag shows and many chat groups. I have been extra busy in regards to thinking about running in 2006 for Wash State Ms. Leather. The conflicts of dates and times and overbooked events for the "running" time may make me postpone that for another year. The PPV (personal Pelvic Viewers tm) have been a world of discovery for everyone that has seen the pictures of me, or in person seen one in me. I have educated educators on the use of it, and thrilled many with the viewing of their own "Bits" as well as mine. I will tell you all about it later. Well it is rush hour around here, have to get Guido to gymnastics now. I hope to hear from Daddy soon about his removal of the cast/splint that has been on his right arm for about 12 days. I will tell you about that later too... Kisses and naughty thoughts, more to come, AT (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
2:08 pm	Think Space Hiya again one and all! I have finally found the floor and a few walls in my house! I am thrilled that Silly has been helping me get things outta my house that no longer matter to me and organizing that which still does. She rocks! I am happy that Max has been doing the same, now I do not feel so alone in the adventure of cleanliness in our home. The garden is coming in nicely. The sunflowers are doing well, and the carrots and lettuces are finally showing. The beans seem to be coming in with a vengeance, and a pea just came up over night as well:) I think it is time for a slug blocker,and lots of water. It has been so long since I grew anything, it amazes me that anything grows at all. I have been battling depression about many things and have to keep reminding myself that life is truly good. I think this comes from me not being able to sleep nights, so hopefully I will get caught up on that soon enough. Been trying to take care of myself a little better. Me first was not what I was raised with, and this is a tough thing for me to do. I have been making the effort to enjoy being at home more. I have even watched several movies next to Max and the rodent as of late. Not quite the suffering in that lately. So hard for me to sit still. This weekend is going to be a full one, what with the home clean out planned and the parade and all. Tonight I get to attend my first ever Leather Social at the Cuff. I am very nervous, but have friends there to help me through that as well. I am very enthusiastic about where that organization is going:) I am so excited about the parade this Sunday, and I am still looking for someone to watch my girl while I march and her daddy drives in the parade.It will come together I know it! Well off I go for now, Kisses and naughty thoughts, AT (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
12:36 am	Life has been a wild ride! Hiya All:) Life has been a wild ride since I was last here to update you all. I have been juggling schedules and such all year long and have filled most of my days and nights to the brim! Max would like it if I were home more and I have no doubt in my mind where he gets that notion. When I am home, things here are taking shape and it is me who is molding that shape for once. I have decided that I too deserve a space in the house all my own, but trying to keep even one little part of that to myself is like trying to get a tablespoon of water from a waterfall(Niagara Falls would seem a good example:)) I will have my own space here some day, and if I keep fighting for it, it may just come to pass. I have been doing a fair job of homeschooling Becca, but some days are better than others of course. We have begun a major project this spring and I have invested a lot of sweat equity into it so far, but it seems barely in progress yet. That new thing is our garden. I want to teach her about delayed gratification, and caring for live things. This garden is yet to have one seed in it, as the dirt settles and she stops planting her stuffed animals and such in it, I will consider that. She is amazing to me. She never rests until she drops from pure exhaustion.(Sound like anyone you know?) We are reading great stories to her at the moment and she is learning to do so many new things, including to read at last. I have no idea how she gets around on the computer in the 8-12 year old stuff with out knowing more than she is letting on. Her artwork is getting better every day and it is finally on tangible medium, and less on the walls.:D I hope to get her back into drama and some sort of physical activity this summer, but that will be a strain on the "no schedule learning" that I have stuck to thus far. Life is a learning place, and every opportunity to learn comes from living and not schedules in my book. I am sticking to that to a certain degree, but I know my little Leo will be getting into her own definitions soon enough. She is soon to turn 6, and I remember being 6 so we might just get closer to being on the same page. I really love her zest for exploration, and I just hope I can keep up. As for after hours things, man is my dance card filling up on a regular basis! I am finding that others see things in me that I never thought existed. I have been blessed with some wild events and opportunities that I never before dreamed would be mine to experience. Enough about that for now. Suffice to say that I am deeply grateful to Max for all he allows me, and his love regardless of all my shortcomings. I am soon to change my age again, and I wonder what he see's in this "old lady" that he sleeps next to;) LOL Well I better get into that bed for now, late nights are a privilege, but sleep must come sometime to take care of me. I will try to write again soon, but for now, Thank you to my wonderful family and extended friends for all that they do, and all they are to me. Kisses and naughty thoughts, AT Current Mood: touched Current Music: anything David Byrne (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 9th, 2003
2:04 pm	Here I am again... Well hello again my friends I thought I better get you all caught up a bit. I have not posted here in a very long time, and feel that not much has been missed in life except keeping others up to date. I feel wonderful today, and I have put off a few things just to give myself a day to do stuff around home. I have begun homeschooling my daughter, and she is doing pretty well. I think she will be reading really soon, and I had better get to much more challenging things with her, or she will mutiny. I will start looking into other activities that the home schooled children are a part of, like NW Aerials etc. Her writing skills are very much improved, and I find that teaching a “lefty” makes my job easier. I can see her work so much better. She has calmed down considerably since turning 5, and I think that her staying home while we went on a trip really helped all of us cope better. Speaking of the trip, we went to Hawaii, not that Max hasn’t told you all this. I loved the trip, and the company of Snakeman(Mark), and Silly, along with my beloved Max. We all are very compatible travel mates, and we sure did have a great time. The only thing wrong with this trip was we needed two weeks instead of only one. We did call our daughter several days in a row, only to hear that we better just stay there, as she was having a wonderful time with out us! (We all spoiled her when we got home.) I was very relaxed on this trip. I prepared only one meal, no driving, and no household chores at all. Each morning, my breakfast was served to me with my tea, and a nice kiss and smile from everyone. This is the way to spoil AT!!! And the nights…OMG!!! Wasn’t that a party?!?!? We should have taken more pictures and I should have brought my friends more stuff, but I was busy reading…I finished an entire book on vacation!!! Well since my return, I have kept very busy with the usual cleaning and running around, parties, concerts, and commitments. So much to tell you all, and I am outta time. I will try to get on here again soon, Till then…TTFN, AT Current Mood: busy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 6th, 2003
12:45 pm	Hello Again...Life is interesting:) Well hello again all:) I have not posted here in a very long time. I do not get onto this type of message board often, but Max keeps me updated along the way. I thought today might be a good day to add something to it. I am really proud of Max and all his new accomplishments in life, and I love him very much. He got on the Board of Directors and has become very active as of late in his volunteering as well. I am busting buttons off my blouse with my pride of his accomplishments here(even if my boobs have shrunk beyond recognition:P). Max is doing very well on his next round of the program as well, and having lost inches off his middle as well as body fat and weight, makes it all worth while in my cooking for him etc. He is doing everything he set out to do and I can only say..."What a STUD!!!". I know how hard our trainer pushes him and he just keeps going back for more. I know he hauls our girl around behind his bike,and that is tough work. I tried doing this but my balance is scary enough with just me on my bike, so I am glad he is doing it instead for now. I will try to get my courage up to do the same, I just will have to go very slowly till I get used to it. I just hate crashing, and I would not want to do so with her on the back. On another note...Marshall is feeling a bit better after his surgery, and I miss him. I can't wait to see the pictures and videos that have been taken of me and such. I know he is recovering and is getting his other doggie today from the airport...Boy is it going to be a growl fest at his house. The new Puppy will meet his father, and the war will begin. I just hope none of them draws blood. I really have been blessed by everything that has been happening in my adventures with Snakeman. The 4th was increadible! He was going to take all of us up in a small plane to see the fireworks, but too many jellybeans got the best of Becca. Max was a wonderful Daddy and took care of her while we went, although Becca was feeling better after we were ready to take off. Really too bad they had to miss it, but a puking child is nothing you want to add to a banking airplane. I owe Max. I owe Max...I really owe Max. My thanks to Snakeman for all the fun and good times he brings us into. I am so happy being in love and in love. Life is very good and very hectic scheduling wise. I better get back to it before I say something stupid....AT Current Mood: bouncy (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 13th, 2002
6:14 am	Back in the saddle Hiya all:) I am back on this thing again. I have not made any entries in a looooong time. I think it is about time to update a few things, including this journal. Being the busy lady that I am this could be long and wordy, so I will just summerize. Well I am about to start my new job soon, Chef Dutch arrives in Seattle Friday. This will be very exciting for me, and I look forward to having my degree in use once again. My weekend is so full that I will not see him till Monday. Tuesday I celebrate my 18th wedding anniversary to Max, and Dutch will bake us a nice cake to share with a few friends before going to dinner someplace exciting. I am pleased that things with Max have been so good for so long and I must say, I love no one as much as him. I look forward to the coming years with him at my side. Ok enough of that...another time another entry, AT (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 19th, 2002
12:49 pm	What is up with my wierd name? Here is the story.... Well good morning all:) I was asked to tell the story of why I have such an odd name, and how I came up with it. I shall do my best to not bore you. ( The story of how Arctic Tundra got her name ) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 17th, 2002
3:24 am	Wednesday Fun Hello and thank you to all who welcomed me:) Wednesday was a great day for me and a very interesting evening. I got to play with Becca today between IM's and such, and my new workout began today too. I am training to run a 5K in the spring. I suspect that my legs and backside will ache in the morning...wait it is morning!:P I got a new pair of running shoes today, ugly but functional. I had a quick drive to Seattle after that to visit at the W.S. and many friends were there. I got my fill of kisses and hugs and even a new player invite(yipee). I obtained two titles of books I need to read and a few new emails. All in all a rather productive night. Then it was off to Tubs and a nice relaxing time with a friend. We spoke about many things and tossed around a few ideas and insights. I left there feeling hydrated and happy. (They have the best water there...) I headed out to watch a movie called The Ruttles...terribly funny and a real parody on the Beatles. I got to see some rare footage of the Concert at the Castle as well...amazing! I even got to hear and see a video of John Lennon and Yoko Ono's son...grrrr the name is escaping my grasp. Well done night all round, even some great porn after that..spooky stuff, major squicksville! Teehee Kisses and Smiles, AT Current Mood: rejuvenated Current Music: mouse clicks and pen scrawls by Max (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 15th, 2002
10:26 pm	Today's lovers, tomorrows friends,new beginnings Today I had a great warm feeling as I dropped my daughter into her first day of school. She had no tears or tantrums and neither did I. This is a whole new world for the both of us. I think we all will benefit from her new adventure. I skirted home in a hurry to meet with a long time, secret lover...great things planned for our day. His arrival only seconds after I got in the door was a welcome thing and I hugged the stuffing out of him. I had a wonderful time and a good heart to heart talk as well...this was to be our last meeting as lovers. I knew this day would be coming, and had prepared myself pretty well I think, but it was still pretty tough to hear. I am glad that we do not have to sneak around behind his S.O.'s back anymore, and that he is sure that his son will benefit from our being friends in a network sense rather than just secret friends. I look forward to some day meeting his S.O. and now I can look her in the eye and not flinch. This was a great thing. I shall miss his voice the most and his attention to my desires too, but I know he is needed more elsewhere. I had another friend pass on a bad story from a party I did not attend, all about how aweful I truely am. I guess the party goers had plenty to complain about in their minds, as the conversation was a total slam to me. I hear tell that I was too overtly sexual a being, and that I made everyone very uncomfortable and upset. I was a lousey person for being too touchy-feely, and a too cheerfull and giggly drunk(I was pretty drunk, not my usual). I think my friend was trying to be nice and tell me about it so I would know...but this made me cry. I was really hurt. I do not get hurt in this way normaly, so why the tears I have yet to know. Ahh well I am not one to dwell in misery for long, so I am over it all and just plan to not give a dang what "they" think. I love my new life and my new body, and I have no desire to change back. I found my daughter happy after school and even had a nice dinner out with a friend. My friend was amazed at how quiet I was and my silence made Max think I was mad or wanting to be elsewhere. Not the case at all, just watching and listening for a change, since I have been told I am too chatty and a terrible parent for yelling at everything my kid does. I thought since she was being so good, I would just keep quiet so as to not get her going. I had fun, and yet I was misread again. Typical... Well now I am off to read the three inch thick manual for my new phone system, and off to bed...workout in the morning early...training for a 5K in the spring:) Hope I have not been boring already. AT Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: plastic dress-up shoes on Pergo, child singing (17 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 14th, 2002
12:21 am	Here I am..at last:) This is my first entry. Well here goes...I had a great day today. I had dim som with friends and got the wood to Nursie. I also had a great massage night. AT (8 Comments |Comment on this)